There are two sides to the same experience
and they are in…separable
one in front of you one in back of you
and the
present
neither one is all there is to you

Couples creation and the making of wo…man
a becoming from invisible to visible to indivisible
life performs in light and the afterlife back lights
the moving meaning
of the evolving living leaving
giving back ground to what comes round
the conductivity connecting
you

Traveling south full of warmth this son
looking up to rise
coming down the I California five
hands on the wheel willing to work
waiting on tables cleaning and clearly
is seen by someone from Simi
who saw him and said the future’s ahead

became friends searching acting dreaming
insight
winding if rising like a spiral in flight
this might of your thoughts flies by why with such light
delights on a limb
branching on in the fellow hymns

He took up the guitar to be around his violin
the strings of things that tie
he improved and he could sing and they began to play
a couple and then a bass
a trio then a band and a violin that couldn’t sing
so another bow figured in then a mandolin
drums a banjo and so it goes
then some bars then some clubs

and what began as a couple became a group
and the first violin took a seat
at rehearsals loosening the tie was the wait
the listening turned to thinking what had begun
to bring the fingers closer to the rings on their hands
in bands of peace and love

Heard the Rattlesnakes last evening full of life
coiled fates entangled states
heard the rattlesnakes that lasting sound you don’t forget
if you don’t listen it’s that sound that bites

Driving home that night the rocky peaks
the sun about to set
in the road up ahead I said
rattlesnake
the brakes were dead the steering wheeled
the spin I took
I looked around

Calabasas what does it tell us
foggy morning helicopter parent on his way to coach
driven parents’ children
crashed in the Santa Monica Mountains
harmonicas in harmony
to
sadness

One of nine was a man of fame and following
an overflowing streaming
of memories memorabilia ability and memorials
adulations and idolatry
the hall the call of fame but what of the dam
the watershed the tears of her the fears of his
the fall from grace the rape case at stake life in prison
Kobe for sexual assault and false imprisonment
rape is not adultery

Tribu…taries we
driftwood from the sea
we walk the shore of
evermore
to see

Ashore the gale force winds
the storm the sails the waves
the frequency of winding trails bring us
to aware

Backpack on the hill…sides all around him
views the steep climbs down and up
through this life the hike continues
the vision here improves our insights
the walking stick figures that heard
his hymn

Sing in the wind tumbleweeds and we
relatives of the same scene
knowingly carry on the further see
gathering above this home
sun

Visitation restoration
of what was becomes
memories memorials rememberings
the vitality of creating those
bringing these to a revival

The arrival
the furthering friendships
the ports of call recalling
the echoing songs
souls sailing hearing heard voices
bringing life lives lived

Thanks living in the breath
the vast expanse to grasp
the all and beyond the love it takes
to walk within and beneath
the heavens great the days and ways

He was no Maverick maybe a cowboy
white and branded with a white hat
from a top gun perspective he dropped from heights
of technological superiority on high
order
bombs to ground down

Nationalists revolutionaries to imperialism
first of French hims followed by American hims
verses of hegemony hedge funds borrowed from u.s.
written in euphemisms for cold invasive wars
he spoke Pentagese
these Vietnamese were
“Gooks”

Roger
that revelation on retaliation
Roger
that weather born on earlier relationship storms
where the umm…brella was to reign down upon
the scene perceived a torrent a flash flood a damning burst
fulfilling a thirst so well nursed that his thumb finds its finger
grips his pen and taps out its curse
for worst then his head hurts and the heart misses a beat

Roger
that then a revolutionary movement beheld him
from criss-crossing the rubicon of a checked past that betrayed
the rising tide inside
a weaning a passing into meaning to be

Newsom’s new sum summons us as masked he didn’t ask
scientists of his choir sing sing in condemnments
for you to breathe in your exhales to inhale his hails
the governor ignores your your in order

Mandatory
to his storied word his book ends now cover your mouth
you hear the censorship it’s the only voice covered
adhered the good citizen sees the citizen
as sinizen and East meets West
con…figuration force forged face covering facial recognition as
ignition cognition of a new religious
State

Managing roots into a band

likes it flat as in horizontal like a flow
marketing spreadsheets into music sheets with a cover
got them into Huck Finn Avocado
the mix in the guacamole is the harmony and discipline
of fun…damentally
becoming creators in partnership
with what
thou art
richness in living together inspiring a trippy
experience

I heard a great grand mother
say the other day
“Dying isn’t easy” … neither is a mother’s
birthing day
and then the life and then
light
what is the darkest night the coming
day
what is the sun but a star
the earth a maze
at every turn a thought
I might not see the why

The night before he was shot he asked for a spot
of his art on her wall
he was an artist then and so was she
siblings sharing a room in a home of nine
children with a single mom no pop living in poverty

He had a tree fort in the woods
a neighbor teen with a gun with or without aim
shot with view to the tree he was in shed wound to the head
he bled and in two days was dead

Not far from a cabin
there is a bridge
painted white now full of graffiti life
there is where a man shot himself
accident or epiphany
self inflicted wound proof or providence
or just another shooting evidence
robbery of innocence life strife breaks up
dreams of he’s and she’s crossing streams
shot in the back of the knee Marine PTSD
epiphany accident providence

If you live at the top of a hill
it becomes clear the fountain of you…th
is uphill
join forces with will the idea became him
most days he drove sometimes he rode he knew the view
the drive
was within

The perspective from there is downhill
looking back vision may not last
life’s
very fast

The ancient Greek messenger from Demeter
bringing the potion to this portion called life
ringing in the present that afterlife
doesn’t need an intermediary

just a chariot with a chalice so your cup can
run over this life into afterlife
leaving
life controlled by religion was never for those
spiritual but not religious

so freeing it had to be captured
your genius throttled not released
choked off at the burning stake for hierarchies sake
asphyxiation crucifixion the criss crossing out
of ancient rituals that brought thought out and up
through paleo pagan christianity to Dionysus to Jesus