Stupid

There I was…and…there she was
only
she was
dead

They said it was a slippery night…and
her car had crashed…and
she had fallen
and I felt the loss…and I
felt our last night and
my last word
“stupid”

I knew she felt that…because
I feel it now
now
I know what I really meant
now she’s dead on the cement
broken

She had dropped a glass…
half full, half empty, I don’t know myself
but
now
I know what I meant
but
what
I said was
stupid

It’s so clear, to me now, as she lays, dead on the pavement
I was
empty
she filled my life
that broken glass,  is clearly me, now
she filled my life
she held me

Last night……
the last word
I meant
to say
together

10/30/00